Am I a freak?

Am I a freak?
    I would be the model student, meanwhile started a puppy love;
    I won't let the boy help me carry some stuff, while the other girls are appreciating this privilege;
    I want to travel around the world, and meet different people all over the globe, meanwhile I would rather be a female otaku as long as it can be;
    I don't want to buy the most fashionable clothes,for I think I have enough clothes now;
    I don't want to make up myself everyday and making myself that modern, while the others around me began to dress themselves up like an OL, with a very beautiful make-up,talking about which brand is on discount,etc;
    I will use just enough water to wash myself while many others choose to use plent while only part of it is being efficient used;
    I would cry and be passionate even when hearing the National anthem, meanwhile I would also cry for the romantic stories between heroes and the heroines of an idol drama, which actually isn't that moving;
    Sometimes, I just want to be myself, and to steadfast in my faith of life. However, as time goes by, it seems the appearance becomes more and more important now, in an interview, in a party, in an activity, etc. I also want to do make-up, just not now. But sometimes even the small interview in a campus prefers the better-looking, or the fashionable ones! Is it right or just it's me myself fallen behind the society!
     Maybe I should be a hermit and live in a very remote but also naturally beautiful place?
     I'm confused!